Follows The Sun

The world
Starting to scope forsythia in the neighborhood, and cross streets to get to particularly rich crocus patches. Dwarf irises are coming out! And it turns out we have a few crocuses at our house, after all. Maybe even some in the front garden – hard to say what the little things stunted from leaf-darkness might become.

The kiddo
Eating. M&D&Gracie come in – MISERY! DESPAIR! And then, far too interested and excited to do anymore eating for another hour or more. Then remembers he is extremely hungry – why has food been kept from him?

Me
Worked so hard to keep the headache at bay. Water, ibuprofen, salty foods – all too late, today. Is it seasons changing? Being cold? Hunching like a horrible little goblin all the time? …. probably that last one has something to do with it.

The world
Gray morning to sunny afternoon. Made it out for a walk with Hugo. Nice to see my plants; not sure how they cold last night affected them but it’s clear the leaves weren’t helping much.

The kiddo
7:45 nap today. He’d been needing it since probably 3:30. Seems to have gone down fine at night; what are all our theories?

Me
Woke at 7:45 for no reason. So tired after work I only had energy for the first few minutes of Hugo time, then zonked. Plowed my way through a double batch of twice baked potatoes, unreasonably glad to skip family dinner in favor of 10 minutes of a Hilda episode with Hoy while Hugo napped.

The world
Cold today; I didn’t walk at all. Fretting about the plants.

The kiddo
Extra mercurial today! Happy and sad basically simultaneously. Two long naps early in the day, then nothing – went down like a dream but an hour later he is crying in the next room while Hoy preps a bottle.

Me
Trying desperately to plan and write and source an ambitious theory in not enough time. Still taking off the weekends though. Have started reading A Distant Mirror again/for the first time. It is lovely to revisit history, and also to read a physical book. I get about two pages at a time, max.

The world
M&D gave us forsythia to force. Cleared away the leaves from the garden – so many little things coming up! Hope they make it through this cold night.

The kiddo
Seems to have made it through daylights savings transition without a hitch. Maybe helped that he really did not nap at all? But in a pretty good mood most of the day, so fine. Sat outside at M&Ds for a while; looked very cute in his sun hat.

Me
Had a really lovely, relaxing weekend. Time with Hoy and time with Hugo and time with Mom and Dad. Didn’t get all that much done, but feel fairly refreshed.

The world
Crocuses crocuses crocuses! They are everywhere suddenly. Hoy says we should have planted some, and he is right. Next year. As it is I look at the green shoots of my scilla and daffodils and wonder whether I should clear the leaves away.

The kiddo
Fell asleep on my chest as I gave him slow pats and Hoy read him some stories. Down for an hour and half long nap! A really sweet moment.

Me
Threw myself down a wikipedia rabbit whole of Stephen King and The Dark Tower. Enjoying myself but expect I may have gunslinger dreams.

The world
Michigan says all adults eligible to sign up for vaccine on April 5!! WHAT?! Maybe by sometime this summer I can sit at an outdoor cafe and relax, after all.

The kiddo
Bonked his head on the crib and woke up at 7:15 this morning. I suppose I should count my blessings (and I do! often!) that this is early for him and us. Didn’t nap much so a bit fussy this evening. Turned over front to back! hated that. Bath with uncle Loren! liked that much better.

Me
Enjoyed a Friday mostly with Hugo. Enjoyed cooking for Sasha and Loren. Do feel like I live a fairly charmed life these days

The world
Windy. I guess Biden says that all adults should be made eligible for vaccines by May 1. That we’ll celebrate July 4 together… in person? I don’t really care about July 4, but I do really care about sitting with Hoy and Hugo at a cafe outdoors. Maybe I’ll do that this summer. First I will wait for daffodils.

The kiddo
Went down to sleep awake! Sang and chatted in his bed, turned on his tummy, asleep. Also, at dinner, I cracked him up by saying “yes” and “no” in the husky, abrupt tone of voice that he finds so hilarious.

Me
How do I get so tired when I don’t go anywhere or seem to get anything done? Is this parenthood? Is this being in my mid-thirties? Is it zoom class?
Yes.

The world
Cloudy, windy, almost 70 today. Took a walk with Hoy mid-day; not that I didn’t have work to do but the first day over 65 demands action. Brushed leaves aside from my scilla where I could find it coming up. Bit by bit.

The kiddo
A bit uffish today. Fussy with Mishell, then happy as soon as I came in – and I heard him crying as soon as I left again. Chortling with me, then suddenly on the verge of tears for a few seconds – if I quieted down for a bit I could get the chuckles back. Same with Hoy and the guitar – good, then too much, calmed with quiet, enjoyed the music, too much again.

Me
I guess that which gets in the way of the work is the work? I thought I’d knock some stuff out, wham-bam. Instead, hours of looking for data on health behaviors in Michigan. Also, the headache came back. Seems connected.

The world
Snow drops snow drops snow drops! And crocuses, too. Impatience tempered by constant tiny changes.

The kiddo
First ride in the sitting-up stroller today. Was interested but got a bit fussy, same as he’s been getting in the reclining carseat stroller recently. What does this mean? Walks are important to me, Hugo! We’ll have to figure it out.

Me
I’m here, too. Made a nice dinner – whole wheat spaghetti with pea pesto and broccoli. Talked to my professor probably more about babies than about my project. Mucking along, having a nice time.

The world
Friends my age are getting vaccinated in NYC. More and more little green things. But an unknown number of weeks or months till there are leaves on the trees, I can sit outside without getting chilled, we can get shots ourselves.

The kiddo
Is most chatty of all right after eating. Or, at the same time, if he’s having a bottle. Mostly serious eating solid foods, but periodically looks over and grins at me. A delight.

Me
I am almost able to do the things I need to do in the time I allot to do them. Some things get done late. I expect I’ll get better and better at knowing which things can handle a spot of lateness here and there.