Learning to Love a Stadium

Posted in Blog on July 12th, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

It sits across the street
hulking and cavernous
and draped with the banners
declaring past victories

Mainly it is empty

Sometimes men with miniature chainsaws
ponderously trim the whole long line
of bushes
standing between the sidewalk
and the fence

I find the irregular stop
start buzzing
a little hard to take

Sometimes men with miniature bulldozers
move around dirt or gravel
in the Winter, shovel snow

Once after a storm we started
digging ourselves out watching
the little machine
making such efficient work of it

And it felt like a tiny miracle
when it turned to clear our drive
it took 2 minutes
certainly not more

Now it is Summer
and in the long evenings and warm nights
all different kinds of people
(all slim, though)
squeeze through the gap in the gate
to go wander or drink or play on the big field

Soon it will be Fall
and the tide of students
going to and leaving the school on our other side
will return to washing litter up onto our lawn
and marking our days with shouts
at 8 and 3 o’clock

The stadium will attract games
as they do in their season
and the police will regulate traffic
and the echoing calls will crowd the day

And I won’t mind nearly as much
as I expect to

It is hulking and majestic
and worth learning to love

March 29th, March 30th & March 31st

Posted in Blog on March 31st, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

I wish I had found time
to stand with my eyes closed
and listen to the sound
of snow melt in the woods

***

there are downed trees in the gorge
that are crumbling
covered in moss in unbroken carpets
and others
that we could still sell for lumber

***

March has slipped away
cloaked in the happy story
I threw over it

Even after all of this
I feel I could have
appreciated it more

maybe next year
or the year after

March 26th, March 27th and March 28th

Posted in Blog on March 28th, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

the wind howled
like a hurt lion
who does not want
to leave

***

discovered what an evening
mostly together
feels like:
pretty nice
but very neutral
and leaves you wondering
at how little together
you were

***

a day filled with
little bits of closeness
like solving a puzzle
or possibly
two

driving away in the evening
the breaks in the clouds lit the sky
golden and blue

then the grey rolled in
and wrapped the highway
in a gentle rain

March 24th & March 25th

Posted in Blog on March 25th, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

I got my hopes
dashed again today

sometimes you’re just stuck
in the system you’re stuck in

***
Driving home today I looked at the trees
standing bare in the park
where they hold the summer market
and even though I know snow is on its way tonight
I believed that they were full
of life
and that if the buds weren’t forming yet
they would be forming soon
and I was grateful to believe it

I am also grateful
for my friends who taught me patiently
how different people are from one another
and reminded me gently and consistently
how thoughtless words can hurt
and how grateful I should be
for everything that comes easily to me

and also I suppose, for the things that don’t

March 22nd & March 23rd

Posted in Blog on March 23rd, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

Made it outside to
shake off the winter some

we went to the park to dance
at the yearly tiny drum circle

out in the fake grecian temple
by the artificial pond

the wind was so strong
it blew backpacks around

the sun still bright at four
and five in the afternoon

our dog was much blown about
and extremely confused

but it certainly felt
excellent to be alive

***

sometimes you just
have to do a thing
to remember that you can

March 21st

Posted in Blog on March 21st, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

It is the second day of spring
yesterday, the first,
(which was the twentieth)
I saw the first blooming crocus

but I have not been out today
I have wasted sunshine
and free hours
but the forgiving light

is lending me a
few minutes more
to make it up

March 18th, March 19th & March 20th

Posted in Blog on March 21st, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

(march 18)

was a Tuesday
and a day
when I thought
I might never remember
how to be productive

(march 19)

I started getting
a few things done
an early meeting
a smart question or two
but boy it wore me out!

(march 20)

back in the swing?
better than ever?
I am proud of today but
not counting
my (productivity)chickens

March 17th

Posted in Blog on March 17th, 2014 by Helio – 1 Comment

a lot of the teachers wore green today
some really went all out
but the students didn’t seem to notice

there wasn’t a fuss

the only one I talked to
told me about her housing complex
which she loves, where she feels safe

and how she has only ever been
in one fight, in 7th grade
(she got her nails done after)

except maybe also that
one time when she was 13

there was a disagreement
over clothes lines and laundry
and she punched a girl who
came at her neck on the stairs

the girl was 30
and actually her next door neighbor
who already had fading black eye
from her boyfriend
who hit her

when the cops came she
tried to blame the bruises
on the student and her mom

that girl was crazy though, said my student
why did she stay with that guy?

March 15th & March 16th

Posted in Blog on March 16th, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

This day is the least
to be bewared of
any day in recent
memory

really, it has been
thoroughly nice

***
I haven’t needed a new
journal notebook since
November of last year

I guess I don’t write
as often as I used to

finally the last page is reached
and I am off to the art store
but what’s this?

No more 5.5×8.5
blank paper notebooks?
Nothing measures up

until I spot the
tan tone paper books, 50 sheets

just right to test out
what effect these tinted pages
will have on
the flavor of my days

March 13th & March 14th

Posted in Blog on March 14th, 2014 by Helio – Be the first to comment

yes it is snowing
but it will be fifty degrees
day after tomorrow
so not to worry
just enjoy the fat flakes
wandering down

***

this friday has
nothing to say for itself
except maybe
pi